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Name: Jay
Location: Lincoln, Nebraska, United States
Birthday: 1/6/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: i like building things ( with clay, mainly sculptures), and i like arcitecrure mainly of houses but also of other things like the coloseum (probably spelling it wrong but im not the english major), i like playing my guitar, i like alyssa (she is the one i know i can talk to when i dont think i can talk to anyone else), i also like driving my car, such a nice little car, i like movies also (alyssa got me hooked on the harry potter series, one of my favorites now), and i like anything milk chocolate. i am interested in fantasy and macabre/horror.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  lostphoenix51
MSN: jamo_51@hotmail.com
Member Since:
11/23/2005
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| When you try new things, you dont know what to expect.
Good things might come out of it or bad things might come out of it.
Its a 50/50 chance. My life has been thrown upsidedown lately.
If someone told me this is how my life would be five years ago, I would have never believed them.
Ive lost so much but at the same time I have gained so much.
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| Im a visionary
from the standpoint
that I knew how to see the earth
to be invisible.
its funny
how we play the fools
thinking we make the rules
thinking we designed our schools
when all we are really
are tools
we keep the machine running smooth
and we dont even notice
cuz were stuck in the groove
we never even notice
cuz were stuck in their groove.
From a song I was listening to.
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| I know I Know, I hate posting lyrics to songs, but i found some that go with what i have been feeling lately.
Don't get me wrong, I still dont like reading lyrics on these things when they are posted all the time.
That said, I don't care if you don't want to read this for that fact. Wont bother me a bit.
And I still wont read long posts like that, so I have shortened mine up. Here it is.
Would you agree that we're far from alright?
We fall below the line! We fall below the standards!
If you could see what we see through these eyes.
This plague is spreading, it will sink under your skin!
I won't believe the horror that i see
Its more than your poison inside me.
Lets tear away these faces we hide behind.
Cutting through the airwaves, open up our minds.
Show ourselves to the world tonight,
Cause we are... No longer in disguise. | | |
| All my life I have been living like there is no consequence. Then one day my life took too big of a step and I tripped. When you get in trouble and you realize that all your junk in your past has caught up with you, you freeze.
Our sins ALWAYS find us out.
It is way easier to run away from the truth.
I just want to hide. To get away from my past. Everything i have gotten myself into is finally catching up to me.
I have a choice to hide under the covers, run away from my past, for a longer time. Or I could lay down, exposed.
... Who have I become?...
... What is this junk I have somehow collected?...
... Get me out of this mess!... | | |
| Wow, I am finally realizing that I am kind of self centered.
I like to think that most things revolve around me. However, they don't. I have been mean to people lately and I feel horrible when I think about it. Even though Jeff and Jesse say it in a nice or joking way, they are absolutely right when they say I am an ass. There are things in my life that I really need to change. I need to stop looking at how other people are acting and make sure I am in the right. I always thought that I broke up with Alyssa because she started to be mean. I finally realize that I have been wrong. It was mostly my fault. I feel horrible that I had to put her through all that crap. If you are reading this Alyssa, I apologize for all you had to go through. | | |
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